Double Life Dexter...

nope,

im not talking about Dexter's Laboratory..

there is this TV series called Dexter..
i dun have time to do a full review,
so go check it out on wiki or smth..
well,
the show is about this guy
Dexter, who was adopted by a police officer
who closed his mumz murder case..

As a child,
Dexter becomes an introvert after his mum is murdered,
and the police officer notices a sociopath side of Dexter..
and he knows better to curb this side,
which mite one day suddenly come out under tension
and cause much more damage..

so the police officer trains Dexter as a killer
who oni goes after those who are guilty themselves..

Dexter grows up and he becomes a blood splatter analyst
for the Miami Dade police..
and he uses his knowledge in forensics and his charms
to kill and cover up his tracks..

that is what i have concluded till now,
as i have watched the series for a few episodes now..

hmm..
sometimes,
i often wonder whether im living a double life as well..
is everything i make it out to be,
really what is inside..

i rmb the vitagen advertisement
"Whatz good on the inside
Showz on the outside"

it is true to a certain point..
if what you cultivate inside is true,
and what you think and treasure is of good worth,
den the outside will have a good appearance

ask any dietitian..

ive never heard of an overweight vegan
have u?
lol..

my point is..
am i,
really living out,
what i show others?
behind closed doors,
do i practice what i preach?

or am i just faking a front..
living a lie?

in the show Dexter mentions a few times,
that he is tired of living a lie
and he knows his days are numbered..

and,
personally,
some of the things i do behind closed doors
are not very nice things..
and i find that,
sometimes itz tiring to show something on the outside
dat doesnt coincide with the inside..
itz like Mr Hyde waiting to pounce out of Dr Jekyll..

itz time for a soul check my friends..
am i really living my real self..
or am i an actor on a stage play which i have no control on?

so is there a
alter ego of Marcus?

or is it just the way i am?

whatever it be, may i live my life for Him alone,
and may i never fake my true purpose!

James 4:8
...⁸Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.
Cleanse your hands, you sinners;
and purify your hearts, you double-minded...

current mood - sad, distressed, glad that i have a friend to talk to..

signing off,