God help me..
aaiyaa..

feel so terrible today..
nevertheless God is great,
and He never lets me down..

jj Nic
said (AGAIN)
dat she is most probably gonna migrate
to U.S

huhuhu..
but actually,
im not as sad as i tot i wud b..

not dat i dun love
my jie jie(pet sis)..

but this year,
i feel the Lord has
just been telling me one thing..

Dude, LET IT GO!!

lol..

my hurt,
my pride,
my sins,
my lust,
my loved ones,
my dreams,
my ego,
my belongings,
my talents,
my knowledge,
my discomfort,
my favourites,
my treasures,
my life..

LET IT GO..

no, not "not-bothered"
not "not-concerned"
not "tak-kisah"

just let it go..

itz a lesson i'll have to learn..
i have to let things go,
as much as i hate it,
i have to pass EVERYTHING over to God..
EVERYTHING if i want Him to take control..

cz,
the moment i try to take control,
my life becomes a mess..

so,
let it go..

so jie,
i will still miss u,
i will ALWAYZ miss u..
but
since u said u are coming home..
so can still c u..
after all,
got internet..
got webcam..
just don forget this lil bro of yours..

as for my REAL family,
Papa, Mama
i love u..
thank you so much
for the input u have given me
and the input that is on itz way..hehe..

koh john and jie kuria..
love u 2 too..

DUN WRY LA!!
IM NOT DYING OF CANCER!!

lol..

God, help me..
bring me thru this..
You have helped me b4..
i trust in You..

signing off,
MarcusDS